I'm not sorry anymore

God given and man wasted. Feelings to be felt to be real to be heard to be shared to be lived. Opinions of this place are everything, I want to expose my soul to the globe, J. I can either help or watch if fall on cnn. You are never alone man, there are more of us out there than either of us know. But we are still small. Will they ever get it right Karl? Not with this compass. Why is it always line-of-site with them? Isolation: I need to find myself before I can help others, or before I can help myself. I'm being blinded by it, I can't see a thing. Plenty of people are dedicated to what is killing them. Is Hell worth all that?



"It's hard to stay mad when there is so much beauty in the world." - Lester Burnam

Euphoria - the way I feel

Nine months it's been. God it used to seem much longer than that, but now it seems as though it was nothing. It's a revolution of the mind, I haven't let myself feel this way for too long. The child is gone and his dream is a new. He is close to reaching cycle three. and to this end he cannot believe. I do belive that this is working. Good, he says. Just let me know when it hurts. I can't help but think that it will be soon. No. It will be quite some time, but you're right I should tell someone. Ok, it's just gonna be a little pin prick. pulse pulse pulse pulse.

Strange voices are saying (damn what did they say?) things I don't yet understand. Just can't explain it to you, I don't know what to say.

My Star is Fading

I know that I've waited and waited, if I'd waited longer maybe I wouldn't be stuck here in this hole. I cut down a size and brought it back to him. I can only blame me. Get lost and then get found. I got cut down to size and that made me realize or see things at leas a little clearer. I can only write it down, it's a poor excuse I know. Steal my heart and hold my tougne. For you I'd wait. I don't know where I'm going and worst of all I no longer know where I'm coming from. Just say you'll wait. The summer sunsets always let me be me.

Hundreds of years in the future, there could computers looking for life on earth.

Say what you feel like, say how you feel. I'm wasting my time in this waiting line. I need to run around and quit being a slave to myself.

Worker bees can leave
drones can fly away
The queen is their slave

Everyone every sinner and every saint. Every lover who loved has scorned. Everybody knows that life can be wonderful. It's that soothing feeling and I smile because it is moving my life. Everyday every star in the sky. I'm feeling all alone, and until I find it I'll wait. I want to lay with you all through the night.

I had a....moment last night. I felt dead and exceptional in the same instant. Feeling dead can be a great feeling. I can't recommend it to everyone though. I think you have to be ready to feel first. Sometimes, I wonder, if my mind is getting to far out to exist. They haven't been talking as much lately, but moreover he has been coming out in references. I wonder where the water is this time of year. I've been in water in most of my life and never took the time to breath. What are you doing here? It's right over there, what you're looking for. Can't you see it? I am a fish with delusions of grandure. And the easiest part is; most everyone else is more deluded than I am. Just let me sit on this beach and think about it first. I just want to be left alone with the stars in the sky that change my mind.

The iris of you eye is always shaking